Although I feel like I’ve grown in many areas throughout these past 10 weeks, my self assessment doesn’t really show it. My spirituality scores have stayed the same, but my physical assessment has decreased. I think it was mainly due to the cold weather, that makes it more difficult for me to incorporate exercise in my daily activities and the construction nearly diminished because we ran out of money for me to continue our bathroom project. My psychological assessment has stayed basically the same, although with new stressors to tackle. But then again with me, assessment almost needs to be done on a daily basis because I have good days too! Especially when I do incorporate contemplative practice into my busy schedule.
I think I’ve done well in progressing towards my goals from a unit 3. My wrist isn’t sore anymore, so only time will tell if it’s healed; or I can just keep telling myself that it is healed and not worry about it anymore. I haven’t had any major impulsive outbursts lately, since I have been spending more time reading the bible and praying for God’s guidance. Lastly, I think I’ve been doing a good job getting rid of the stressors I have control over. My one roommate is gone, and my husband is finally getting strong enough to realize his baby bro is taking us for granted. I’ve also made one of the most difficult decisions in my life to accept a new job offer, ridding myself from work stress even though I had stability.
From this course, I’ve learned how to control my conscious mind and allow wisdom to lead my actions. I am that fun loving, adventurously curious kid I’ve always been. I’ve gained a higher confidence in myself that I’m doing the right things for the right reasons, still keeping a sense of self-discipline. I think the most difficult part in continuing my journey is to keep my mind still. But now I’ll know what I need to do if I see or feel myself falling back. This experience has helped me to move forward in my life with confidence and has allowed me to have an open ear, a kind humble heart, and words of wisdom to pass on to those in need of wanting help.
Come on guys! Let’s make this world a better place!
Hey Steph,
ReplyDeleteAs cliche as it might sound I am going to say it anyway...KEEP YOUR HEAD UP.........when I am feeling overwhelmed I have 3 songs I listen to, Man in the Mirror--Michael Jackson, I Can See Clearly--Johnny Nash, and Ooh Child-The Five Stairsteps (but covered by many, many artists). I know it might be cheesy but these songs really inspire....in fact just music in general inspires me. I don't care what mood I am in I can find music that gives me a 'feel good' feeling. I spent the majority of my 20s in relationships that were nothing by toxic because I was in love with the idea of being in love and the idea of having a 'family'. It took some time but things really turned around for me when I turned 29. Now at almost 32 I have the best relationship anyone could ask for and love and family and all the things I started invisioning three years ago. I realized that I was my own worst enemy. Happiness didn't come over night but little by little I started see what I was picturing in my head and so it can to be...................the reason I share this with you is I know you can have this too. Anyone that can write and bare their soul with strangers has the capability to reach within themselves and find this peace too. I will continue to send positive thoughts your way and in time everything good that was meant to come to you....will.
Good luck to you Steph, may happiness, wellness, laughter, and love find you.
Hi Steph, We are all works in progress. One of the best parts of this assignment is that we get to chart our progress and with doing so, we are always able to continue working on the areas that need strengthening.
ReplyDeleteI wish you all the best Steph in silencing your mind when you need it best.
Sherry
Steph, I am happy to hear that you are moving in the right direction. We all have fell short at sometime or another. God is there, even if we think we can't see our creator. God is always there, just make yourself well by prays and meditation and I think everything else just falls into place. Stay whole Steph. Read Psalm 1 and Psalm 27
ReplyDelete